grrrr.

Oh man.

i hate 2 be bugged wif responsiblities. responsibility. can i sae wad's dat. urghh. my whole life, im expected 2 take care and fend for myself. my parents werent dere emotionally during times when im most in need of guidance. "ure suppose 2 noe wads right n wads wrong." so dey said. so i grew up independently, bearing responsibilities for my own doings be it right or wrong.

as de eldest child, i haf 2 see dat my siblings do well in skol. dey expect me 2 do dat. i need 2 teach my siblings everytime dey need help. n its MY FAULT if dey fail to perform. yar. my fault dey said. im an irresponsible sister for not teaching dem. thanx ar. i myself am not coping well in skol n i still have 2 bear de responsibility as a tutor 4 my siblings.

and now.. since im closest to dis person, im held responsible to bring her to de right path. everyone's bombarding e wif qns abt hu de person's wif, y de person turned bad. n everyone is blaming me 4 being nonchalant n probably sekaki wif de person. " probably u r de one hu taught de person all dis." fine. fine.

since everyone thinks im so responsible wif all dat has been going on, blame me all u want. i dunt care. seriously. i haf better things 2 worry abt. dats it.