moodless.

Haix..its been one wk since i blogged. i simply dont haf de mood for anything these days.
And so my parent noe abt us.
i wonder if i made de right decision..
well at least i feel slightly relieved. juz slightly.
deep within me, dere's still dis unsettling feeling of uncertainty.

i dont wish to defy my parents but sometimes i wish dey see dat im no longer an eight yr old child. I noe wad dey do is becoz dey luv me. but dey shud juz let me free if not totally dey can start doing so bit by bit. but nooo.. dey have to keep me in a cage. dey are practically mapping out my entire life for me.

i missing him alot. so so much..it breaks my heart not being able to see him. i guess its my fault. *sigh* i wish i cud explain myself. u mean alot to me. i dont wish to lose u. i hope things will turn out for de bez later on. i cant sleep at times thinking of u. how much ive hurt u.i want to make it all better.pls let me..

i miss u.
luving u alwiz...